My Poems

I am learning how to live.
I am observing other people.
I am watching their behaviour as a human being who doesn’t know how to be the one.
I sit in silence, you won’t even notice me. I am synonym for the shadow - so empty that way.
So small and insignificant for a lot of things
I am something even I can’t describe myself.
Oh, what a shame, such a bitter shame.
I am watching people’s happy moments filled with joy
But I am also observing their sufferings, misunderstandings and fears.
No need to vanish, it’s all here.
You can look at that with me too.
I am preparing for another chance
If I ever born again
If I ever will be made of human flesh
I will use my observations.

The hardest thing I’ve ever experienced
Was the day I came alive to the earth.
Should’ve just crossed the point between the world and me
Should’ve just eaten myself alive.
The pain squishes my eyes, the fuzziness crushes the bones
Suffocates me when I’m transparent or disembodied.
And then the sunrise reincarnates to wash up and move
And I tear off my face, inhale the adulthood.
Responsibilities break loose that were meant for a dog
The hardest thing is going through hell on my own.